In life, we take the hammering because it is unavoidable, and after a certain amount of time one tends to acquire an extensive collection of nails.
Sometimes I feel more of the nails than others. Being sensitive will do that. Also, I find with huge failures, all of those plans, those beautiful dreams, the peaks and valleys, so much energy and work, all became nails driving into one spot, knocking the wind right out of me. And the big ones take longer to hammer in so it's a protracted and shocking process.
Now that I'm an adult, a good portion of the time I'm doing the nailing. Whether it's about perception, expectations, rules (including moral and ethical code), or personal character traits, I'm making most of the decisions. You hold the hammer, life just provides the nails.
Or maybe it's just me? Wouldn't be the first time that's happened.
|Nailed: DeScaibled: 2016|
Mixed media gouache, ink, and colored pencil on prepped chip board.